Don't be so down. I've sold many Oldmobiles that I loved, and miss. But you know what? There are still more out there to enjoy!
Sounds like this may be a point to advance yourself, and find a Rocket you will really like!
I had to sell this just to start a new job. It was 3 years of work to get it where I wanted, and I wasn't done. (See where the "RednBlack" comes from?) It was truly "One Of A Kind".